Last night's "weekly accountability"

It’s taken me a little time and a good chat to a friend of mine to get my thoughts and emotions in order from last night.

It was my promised weekly accountability.

There was something every day in my book for last  week.  Some days worse than others.  The main thread was lack of exercise and the one or two big things for him to take care of.

He told me to strip and lay face down on the bed over two pillows and then he wandered off and left me there to contemplate my fate.  This was new.  He has not done this before.  It was very sobering.

About 10 minutes later (well it felt like 10 minutes) he came into the room and laid out his implements in front of me and asked me which one I would like him to start with.  I wanted his hand but he refused that.  It hurts his hand too much!  I almost feel sorry for him.  Oops, I’d better watch that tone.  I suggested the paddle (*wink wink*).  He didn’t listen to me.

He went through my book and I got 7 hard and fast strokes of the cane for just having something in the book for each day of the week.   

(OK who let slip the secret about the paddle being the better implement to go first?)

He then alternated between all his four toys.  The leather strap; the studded strap; the cane and the paddle. 

I then got 7 very hard and fast continuous smacks with the paddle for not doing any exercise all week.  That hurt.  That’s all I can say about that.

And then I lost count of everything else and just hung on as best I could.  He took me to my limit and beyond I think. 

It was a hard session.  Towards the end he tied up my hands and spanked me some more for good measure and then left me laying there to contemplate some more.

After about 5 minutes or so he untied me and hugged me and rubbed my back and stroked my hair asking if I was OK and that I have to promise to behave better and do my exercises.  I did. I promised.  I sat up and set my alarm for 5.30 this morning to get up and exercise…………urggghhh guess who didn’t get up to exercise this morning! 

It took a long while for me to recover last night.  I felt quite overwhelmed with it.  It wasn’t as hard as my last session when I think I reached subspace.  For some reason it just overwhelmed me.  I’m OK, no lasting damage no welts and no broken skin.  Just a little sore today.  He wasn’t angry at me but he was dead serious.  Like Sunday.  Maybe that is what overwhelmed me.

Sex followed, and we reconnected and the comforting after was all good and fine and I was happy with it, I just felt a little overwhelmed.   Me thinks, thanks to my friend working through it with me, it's to do with subspace that I felt.  Now I'm coming down and he really needs to be careful with me.   I need lots of TLC.

But I’m OK.  Except I have been told that I have to face the consequences tonight of not doing exercises this morning.  I am going to talk to him tonight about an alternative punishment tonight for not exercising this morning, instead of spanking.  Wish me luck.

And then tomorrow its shopping night...urrggh, I hate shopping.

And then it will be almost time for weekly accountability again.  And lets face it he just proved on Sunday that having kids around the house will not stop him for punishing me when he thinks I need it.

When am I going to be sitting comfortably again?  Anytime soon?  I don’t think so.