Just spanked!

I've just been spanked.   (It's not me in the the picture  but my bottom looks very much like that right now)

I'm sitting here very gingerly on a sore bottom while Sir goes to pick up his daughter and two step kids from the mother.

Sometimes Sir surprises me.  One minute I think he doesn't "get" this DD and then the next this happens.'

I am off work this morning as I have a heavy cold (wish I had gone in now) and I just got spanked hard this morning for a number of reasons but the main one was because I kicked up a bit of a fuss because Sir agreed to pick the kids up a day early and from Thorn's place as opposed to the normal half way point.

Sir kindly reminded me that he is the boss, he will make such decisions over these three children as he sees fit and if he HAS to go all the way to her home town to get HIS daughter then he will, whether I like it or not.  He has a point.  He is the HOH and he will make the decisions.  I need to learn to just be quiet once I have expressed my opinion instead of going on and on and on and on...

He punctuated every word of his lecture with the belt and the paddle and our home made green two tails.  Ill have the marks from that thing for the rest of the week.

The spanking lasted for about 30 minutes.

It hurt. 

I cried, a lot.

(But I stayed in place)

I said I was sorry.

I promised that in future I wont make such a fuss and that I will not harp on anymore.  Once I have expressed my opinion and he makes the decision then that is the end of the story.

He warned that next time if it happens my punishment will be worse (I dread to think how much worse it could be).

And then I had corner time for 10 whole minutes. 


And now he has gone to get the kids.

Leaving me sitting (or standing) here with a very sore bottom, feeling very sorry.

A word to the wise

It pays

and I mean it REALLY pays


NOT to

use ones new phone and access the Internet from the said new phone to watch a movie on You Tube on that new phone when one really REALLY SERIOUSLY doesn't want to go to sleep

after being sent to bed, at bedtime, following maintenance on a Sunday night, in the shed!
 

 

 

Well, at least... it pays to not get CAUGHT doing it....

 

 

 

....because

 

 

things might just get a bit very painful for an already sore behind

 

AND

 

......and He really wont see the funny side!!
 

"Does it REALLY feel like I don't care anymore what you think or do?"

“Tell me Kiwi, does it REALLY feel like I don’t care anymore what you do or think”?...

…was the question I was asked last night when I got home from work and marched straight up the stairs to the bedroom.

He bent me over the side of the bed and proceeded to give me 6 good strokes of the cane for deliberately being bratty and leaving all the towels on his side of the bed.

I tried to explain that I was acting out because it felt like he didn’t care anymore what I did or said or think; and that it was stupid and I was sorry and wouldn’t do it again. But to no avail.

He also pointed out that he had noticed (whether I realized it or not) that I had not been getting up to do my workouts for the last couple of weeks…he gave me a direct order to get up this morning to do them.

Uh oh.

Honestly, I meant to.

I went to bed at bedtime.

I rang him to say goodnight.

Set my alarm.

But I had a bad night, very restless and come 5am this morning I was tired. So unfortunately I hit the snooze button.

When I woke him to take Little Miss to school he said to me:

“You failed to get up this morning”

With head bowed and eyes lowered I said “Yes sir, I’m sorry”

“Why not”

“I had a bad night and didn’t sleep very well”

“Why not?”

“I’m not sure”

“I’m not impressed Kiwi”

“I did set my alarm so I did intend to get up”

“That is not good enough and it doesn’t earn you any brownie points”

“No Sir”….and with a stuttering pause I asked the question “Am I in trouble”

“YES” … “Love you, now go to work, I’ll deal with you later”

 

Later is going to be at the weekend...but its 9.30 on Thursday night and I've already been told off on the telephone and warned that if I dont get up in the morning to work out I'm going to get my "arse kicked"

Poof!

It’s been a while since I posted. Life has been a bit busy. 

 

We have an addition to the family. Sir found her on his travels at work in a Rubbish Dumping place and just couldn’t leave her. So meet our new little girl. She is very clingy at the moment and seems to have adopted me as her mum and so when I sit down, she sits down on me. Hence I have not been blogging much. (Although I do have a new phone with internet access – and I’ve suddenly learnt how to comment on other blogs on it…I haven’t attempted to actually type a post on it - yet – this does not bode well for sticking to my bed time rule…watch this space)

 

 

We had another issue with one of our other cats during Easter – she disappeared for four days and then we finally found her - stuck up a pine tree for 4 days. We finally got her down, but it was an all day effort. It was our maintenance day we found her and to be honest we both had no inclination to do maintenance so that went by the way side that weekend.

Other things have gone by the way side too.

I don’t feel submissive; Sir’s whole dominant persona seems to have gone, its like he isn’t bothered; rules and punishment…..

……It’s just all gone. Poof!

 

 

 

I really don’t think you can have submission without dominance. For without dominance, there is nothing to submit to.

We had maintenance last night. It was a spanking session and that’s all. He spanked me over the stool until the tears came. That was that. I read from my book. That was that. He didn’t lecture; didn’t tell me off; didn’t TELL me what he expects of me this coming week; didn’t TELL me that I have to keep my attitude in check. Didnt TELL me to exercise or drink my milk. He didnt tell me off for not doing any of those things last week.

Yet earlier on in the day, we were visiting family and I let it slip I had bought a DVD during the week without permission…he gave me THAT look – you know the one. The one that says everything, about how much trouble you are about to be in, the one that says “just wait till I get you home young lady”. I tried to hold his stare but couldn’t. But that was it. When it came time – nothing was said. Am I put off buying any more DVD’s this week…not really! At the end of the day what is he going to do? Given last night’s performance just a spanking and then its over and done with anyway! Hummmph!

Do I feel submissive? Not really.

Do I feel like I want to obey, be respectful? Well, no not really, respectful well, generally I am until he says or does something I dont like then I wont be.

Will I buy a DVD this week, no probably not …but only because I feel guilty spending the money when I could be spending it on the kids, not because Sir has told me not to. Has he made me feel like that with his dominance? Now that would be a big fat NO!

Yes I got spanked last night and will again this coming weekend and every weekend I ask him to. Did I get told off, lectured, told what to do, how to behave, what not to do. No. And I need that. I need him to “engage” mentally with me in this. Last night in the shed was just pure spanking and nothing more and that’s great if that’s all I needed, if that’s all I wanted. But I wanted discipline, real discipline. I wanted him to guide me down the right path this week. Will I do my exercises in the morning – probably not! Because I don’t want to do them. He didn’t tell me I had to do them that he would be disappointed if I didn’t, he didn’t say he was disappointed in me for not doing them at all last week. He didn’t seem to care about them. He didn’t give me the lecture about my health and how much better off I will be. And if that is the case, well, I’ll exercise when I feel I want to.

Will I get sassy and cheeky and have an attitude and get argumentative when he says something I don’t like? Absolutely yes, because it would appear it doesn’t bother him.

Because I am an independent woman who can do what she wants when she wants how she wants. Sir not showing me his dominance allows that independent person to come through and she will take full advantage.

I really need sir to use his words as well as him implements. I need the lecture, the telling off. If he wants me to vocalize my infractions, read aloud from my book, I will, I do but I need a reply back. I need a lecture to cover what is in my book. Even if all that is done and said first, and then the spanking starts; or vice versa. Whatever he wants is fine. I just need words from him. After all a spanking is just a spanking isn’t it? The effects where off and what are you left with? It’s the look, it’s the words, it’s the tone of voice along with the effects of a spanking. It’s the disappointed look he gives you when you have let him down and broken a rule. I need to feel his dominance and I need to feel submissive again.  I am missing it. 

I know I just need to tell Sir how I feel, but how do I do that without sounding like Im complaining, or nagging. I hope its just another "phase" and not something that is developing into the "norm" for us.