Well, hello everyone. I am back, making a fresh start in here as well as in real life.
It has been a very long and winding road since I was last here.
The big move South was a disaster. We managed 2 years exactly, with Sir working not working working. He used up all of the money I had left in the world. He tried to be dominant and masterful but it was rather abusive and aggressive so I stopped it.
Eventually, I pulled the pin and told him I was heading back home, he could come go stay as he pleased. We left. Came back home. I got a job straightaway. He got charged with fraud. Imagine my horror.
At the same time my ex husband was diagnosed with throat cancer and had some major treatment, and recovery. We got closer together until it was decided that we would reconcile. (He very much wanted this Ds way of life) we had it all planned. I left Sir. Just had enough. Turns out he is a bit of a monster really.
But then last Christmas my ex husband who was to become my new husband again, went and got sick on me and passed away in March. Its been a shocking year. Our reconciliation was not public knowledge for a number of reasons we were working through. .all stupid now...but I have had to grieve alone. Even my kids were not aware of our plans so I was not included in anything. Like I said, its been a shocking year.
But I am slowly recovering with the help of a very new special friend.
So, now I'm wishing and hoping and praying things work out with my new man. Its all very hopeful and lovely.
I let him in on my deepest darkest secret a couple of weeks ago...yup, that's right...my spanking fetish. He is very much a newbie and he teases me and threatens but nothing has happened yet. He said it will...when I least expect it...
Watch this space......
