Sunshine after the rain

Thursday 22nd December 2011

Well, I decided after posting my post yesterday that yes in deed if there was ever a time to ask for a spanking then it was yesterday.

So I emailed my husband and this is what I said to him:

You have given me a little lee way this week with it being Christmas, I have had full access to finances to buy presents and food and it’s been great and I can feel the power. I don’t want to give it up.   But I have to, I know, but it's going to be a struggle and my attitude today was the start of it.   So I need you to be really strong RIGHT NOW and take me in hand tonight spank me for my attitude & for not listening to you and to make sure that I know full well that as at the end of the week my spending powers are back to normal.

Is that OK with you?

He totally agreed with me.  I got home from work and that was the first thing he said, simply “I agree with your email”.

So, indeed, I asked for it, it was given, I received it and I feel so much better.  It was the cold sharp shock that I needed.  It wasn’t long or drawn out, it wasn’t tender but it wasn’t harsh.  It was straight to business, hurt and he made his point.  I was spanked soundly with the paddle and the cane, lectured about my attitude and where it should be and told to go to bed.  The aftercare was amazing.  He was tender and loving and forgiving.  He held me in bed close to him in his strong arms for the longest time, just holding me stroking me until I calmed myself.  I apologized whole heartedly and he just kissed me gently and said its ok baby. 

He told me during the spanking that I am to be a good girl and quietly without any fuss or bother hand over the cash card tomorrow morning.

I did  this morning.

I still feel a few niggles over it this morning. It is so hard handing back the control.  I have enjoyed the power this week.  But that feeling is getting better.  I commented that perhaps I needed another spanking over the next day or so to just make sure my mindset is back where it should be.  He has no problem in obliging me.

My rainbow has finally come out, the sun is peeking from behind the black cloud and the skies are looking a tad brighter this morning.  My submissivness is slowly returning and I’m feeling less and less scared of DD once again.  What a good feeling that is.

Anyway, this will be my last post (probably) for 2011.  I just wanted to wish all my friends and readers and lurkers here in blogland a very safe and merry Christmas, a healthy and prosperous new year, I hope your families are happy and safe over the holidays and I will see you all back here mid January.

Take care love and best wishes Kiwi xxxxx