The Email.

I am so bad,  I have done very little work here at work today - just  reading and blogging and researching.  I deserve a spanking just for that alone LOL (but im not admitting to anything).  This is just a little update and now its time to sit back, try to relax,  not say a word and see what happens.  I sent the email, asking for maintenance spankings, once a week.  A confession - I lost count of the times  i sent this email, then hacked into his email account deleted it and started again.  This must be the 10th attempt - this is what it said:

"I've been thinking about what we talked about in bed last night - would you please spank me regularly once a week "just because".  It meets my needs for you to be dominant over me UNTIL I do something really wrong that deserves a real punishment spanking, I like it and it makes me feel happy and secure, I love that feeling and it does help keep me in line.    Like a warning behave or else!   

THEN when I  do step out of line or do something wrong (like the smoke alam, over spending on the budget, credit cards, not doing as im told, keeping stuff a secret, not paying bills on time) things like that....you punish me properly and severely like Sunday (I NEED MORE TELLING OFF THOUGH) - and no empty threats!   I honestly woudn't deliberately do something wrong just to be spanked - that makes it a game.  They hurt!  Its  about the dominance and submission, after a punishment the issue is dealt with, forgiven and forgotten.  It might make me feel very nervous and scared before hand but I feel very respectful, happy, secure and settled afterward.    I love that you are in charge of me.   

It gets my attention when you tell me off, when you give me that warning look over your glasses, the black mark system you have going - but that needs follow through to be effective  - it all makes me think uh-oh I'd better watch my step.

Hope you understand - and I promise no more talk about it unless you want to talk more.  BUT I reserve the right to ask for a spanking still  Love you heaps xxxxx"

So i guess that will be my final word to him on the subject - hahaha who am I kidding - i know me.  It wont be my final word.  I just hope he reads it properly.  I am not going to ask, nor say a word, if he checks his email when I am home then i will vacate the lounge and busy myself with housework or chores or disappear into a very hot bath and submerge myself when he comes in to scowl at me because I'm "going on" about it.